Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Did it ever shock you when a guy you just knew call you? Well, to me, it kinda happened maybe twice. OK, first, it was the guy who develop a crush on me. OK, i knew it after several calls from him. He first asked me how i'm doing, what i'm doing and told me how he get my number and all. ok. at first, i was ok, he called and i thought that's it. but then the next day he called again. and we did that over like the next few weeks or months. i dun remember. we chatted a lot. talk about what we likes or dislikes. what we like to do. what's our favourite stuff. then there was one very long phone call. i think it was about 6 hours long. kept me awake the whole night, it was him calling because he just broke up with his gf. ok. let me get this straight. we werent not an item at first. i didnt know his intention until later on. so the first few phone calls, i thought it was just a friendly thing.
Second time was from the guy who i didn't have his number either. never ask his and he never ask mine. ok. but we met and chat a few short talks. well, he just ask some school stuff. no meaning i guess. but it's kinda funny that i knew him for almost 2 years, and i just got his number like a few weeks ago.hahaha..crazy. but it's true.
you know, sometimes, you expect to get a call from someone special, but when you pick it up, it wasnt special at all. it's either your friends,parents and other survey ppl. i mean it's not that i dun like getting phone calls from my friends or my mom or dad. but it's just that, do you ever wonder that someone that you might hv a crush on, suddenly calls you! to me, IT WILL JUST MADE MY DAY!! because as you know, im not the type of person that get many phone calls.
guess what i can do right now is just waiting for his phone call:
Currently Listening:The best thing - Mocca
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5:44 PM
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Sunday, September 21, 2008
You know after you met someone, and you feel that you this interaction this particular person. You just wanna meet him again, and get to know him. Having the first conversation is so difficult, especially when both parties are very shy. Kinda happen alot to me. I mean when we first met, our hand touch, well that's a sign of politeness right. shaking hands. then we have our first conversation. starting the conv, is a tough job. well for me it is. you kinda need to figure out what his reply going to be and surely, you still have to think baout the next line of words you are going to say. MAKING THE FIRST CONV, IS SIMPLY HARD.
I met this guy like last christmas. To me, he's kinda cute. and i was tyring to get his attention. i did got a little. like after several days spending together. well, i was on holiday at my friends n met this guy. he was my friend's bro. first, i couldnt talk to him, but after days, playing together, eating together, he practically stayed at my friends' house for like a long time. hahahaha...went home just to shower. well that's wad we kinda do during holz right? too lazy to describe to whole story...but it kinda get what i'm trying to ilustrate.
sometimes i wonder.
Can this
turn to this?
I was just hopping it would someday happen. soon?
Currently listening: Trouble SLeeping - Corrine bailey rae
Credit to pictures @ deviant art.
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7:50 AM
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Thursday, September 18, 2008
Well, it kinda contradict with the title. we have not exactly met. well if we do, we are currently no attraction to each other.Let me ask you a question: is it easy to predict a guy? to me, sometimes yes, sometimes no. there are some guyz that i can predict. from the kind of music he do and his hobby and the type of person he is. but there are other guy who you never expect will do this and that. which i kinda hard to predict.
Currently, I kinda trying to predict someone. im not mentioning name. cuz, im not sure myself. i think he's just too difficult to predict cuz he;s kinda to everyone. well, we talk...i guess we talk more than we used to do. which is kinda interesting. he kinda get my attention. i dunno. should i go check out this guy or not? i mean, it's not that important right now. well to me, i prefer the guy making the first move, just because whenever i show interest to someone, they backed out from me and found some other girls, but first they used me. which is really hurting me, kinda till now, so im scared to even try.
mr right please come quickly, im almost 20, and still single. and obviously looking for love, but im just scared to find one. because im scared when i found one, i will lose it. Gosh, what should i do. i guess this guy need to break the fence that has been guarding my fragile so that it wont break again.
so, do u think i should go and look for love? or should i just wait till mr. right came...
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10:13 PM
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Saturday, September 13, 2008
My friends always always and ALWAYS tell me. I just have to wait for LOVE and it will come by itself. I mean do you really believe it. I mean it's not like CInderella or Snow White where there's a prince and in the end, there's a happy ending. That's all just lies.
You know, if you just wait for love, i think it will never come to your way. For me, I need to find love. it's not easy. in fact, right now i haven;t found. I mean, if you have to wait, HOw long are you expecting to wait. 1 year? 5 years? 10 years? i think by that time, you will probably be like so old, and there;s no one for you. ok. it's not im saying this for all of us. but i think we need to do something. but i still dunno wad.
My mom told me. im not attractive enough, especially when im fat. ok. i did tons of ways to lose weight. and let me tell you, it's not easy. in fact it's difficult. but do u think your hard work, there will be someone to notice u. when you put on makeup to make yourself looks pretty, some people call you are coveriing something. you're fake or something else. i mean. to me, i personally put on makeup cause it makes me feel happy. give me confidence. not necessarily to get someone attention. Im tired to getting people's attention. cause, they are not looking. so wad for?
My mom already begs me to find a guy, just because she's scared i will the one left behind. but finding a guy is not easy. it's not like you pick him out of the crowd. you have to get their attention first. get to know them and then you decide whether you compliment with each other. NOT SIMPLE right?
oh well, sometimes getting guys attention tired me out and kinda wasted my time. why bother doing so when no seems to get ur attention. feel stupid sometimes when i do that. i guess too much day dream makes me too much imagining stuff. eugh!
currently listening: Lucky- Jason Mraz
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11:59 PM
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