Saturday, September 13, 2008
My friends always always and ALWAYS tell me. I just have to wait for LOVE and it will come by itself. I mean do you really believe it. I mean it's not like CInderella or Snow White where there's a prince and in the end, there's a happy ending. That's all just lies.
You know, if you just wait for love, i think it will never come to your way. For me, I need to find love. it's not easy. in fact, right now i haven;t found. I mean, if you have to wait, HOw long are you expecting to wait. 1 year? 5 years? 10 years? i think by that time, you will probably be like so old, and there;s no one for you. ok. it's not im saying this for all of us. but i think we need to do something. but i still dunno wad.
My mom told me. im not attractive enough, especially when im fat. ok. i did tons of ways to lose weight. and let me tell you, it's not easy. in fact it's difficult. but do u think your hard work, there will be someone to notice u. when you put on makeup to make yourself looks pretty, some people call you are coveriing something. you're fake or something else. i mean. to me, i personally put on makeup cause it makes me feel happy. give me confidence. not necessarily to get someone attention. Im tired to getting people's attention. cause, they are not looking. so wad for?
My mom already begs me to find a guy, just because she's scared i will the one left behind. but finding a guy is not easy. it's not like you pick him out of the crowd. you have to get their attention first. get to know them and then you decide whether you compliment with each other. NOT SIMPLE right?
oh well, sometimes getting guys attention tired me out and kinda wasted my time. why bother doing so when no seems to get ur attention. feel stupid sometimes when i do that. i guess too much day dream makes me too much imagining stuff. eugh!
currently listening: Lucky- Jason Mraz
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11:59 PM
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